Married... with Children and kittens...

I am now a father. Yes, goes to show you the state will allow anyone to breed. I think I'll be a good daddy though.
right now I'm home with the little guy. his name is Liam and he was born on Sept. 5th. at 16:34. 8 lbs and 12 oz. 21 inches long. he was a big kid. God love him. I know I do.

now we've been home a week and we're adjusting. his grandparents flew out for PA to visit him and will be here all week. His grandparents from nor cal (my folks) will be out soon after. My mom broke her wrist and will be out of commission for awhile. sucks. but having a break btwn grandparents will be good. now my life is changing diapers and singing about a monkey boy and getting monkey kisses. I love it. can't believe I waited 37 years to do this. But it feels right and I'm so happy. the best days over the past week have been with him asleep on my chest. the first four days of his life in the hospital we just sat in the room and listened to music. never turned the tv on... never watched movies or anything on the internet. It was just talking and listening to music and love love love....

I love my little monkey man.... can you tell? welcome to the world Liam Henry Ryan

One Year Later...

It's been a year since janice and I have moved into this house. I still love it. I am working right now doing a documentary for the producer I was working for last year. it's a good feeling and a project that is really setting a new level of challenges for me. I am up for it and every day I go in feeling like I can take it on, but by 5 p.m. and working straight observing footage, I'm exhausted both emotionally and physically. I'm left thinking, what the hell am I doing.

In the end I come home and I'm exhausted. It has me thinking about the past year. Where I was last year when we moved into this house and how I was feeling. I was worried about work, I was worried about a lot. My life felt like it was put into a weird spiral. I thought I could grab onto what was going on, but in the end, I think emotionally I never did recover until Jan. of this year. I had a lot of challenges put before me last year and if time has taught me anything it's that you can get through it with a good person by your side and a lot of faith. Janice and I made it through a tough year and we did it together! It was awesome. Now that our anniversary is upon us in the house, I look back and think of how wonderful the last year really was. The time I had to enjoy this house while not working and the time I had to think about what we have to do to fix things up. Right now I'm sitting here with a cold draft on my neck from the front window (or is it the side window?).

We're looking at redoing the windows, kitchen, I need to stop the garage from flooding during bad rains and insulate the attic. And I want to get all of this done sooner than later.. because we have a little bundle of joy starting our family in september.

Okay.. going to wrap this up. In a nutshell. Last year was great. Despite down times, we're doing alright. We survive cause we got each other and we always will. In the last year, I lost a job, gained a house, found temp work to keep me a float, got married, went on a honeymoon, came into the world of future fatherhood, and got a job.

God really knows how to put you on a roller coaster ride doesn't he?